Every day I have more doubts about my work, and I’m not sure this is the job I want. Today there was a very unpleasant conversation between my colleague and the company director. It all started during our meeting, when we were discussing tasks. The meeting was delayed by more than an hour, and as usual the director began talking. But after a few minutes, he became very angry, shouted, and swore. This happened because my colleague disagreed with him, and the director slightly misunderstood the situation.

Yesterday I wrote about how many sunny days we have here, and today the weather was cloudy. I think I jinxed it, because my day started and ended with clouds. I remember seeing the bright sun only a few times and feeling its warmth. Because I managed to go for a walk during my lunch break. Even though I could only walk for 30–40 minutes, I think it was enough to rest and enjoy a little. I also went for a walk during work time. I had ordered some things, and my phone notified me that my orders were ready for pickup. Honestly, it was already late, and I had only 30 minutes left of my workday. So I decided to go and pick up my orders because I could collect them until 6 PM. If my team lead reads this post, I hope everything will be okay.

Today was my first work day after my vacation. I worked all day from 9 AM until 6 PM, with a break between 12 PM and 1 PM. In the first part of the day, I returned to my old tasks that I couldn’t finish before my vacation and refreshed my memory about them. In the second part of the day, I had a meeting about how we can stop using Google services. Instead, they want to switch to Russian local services from Yandex. If you don’t know, Yandex is a Russian company that is very similar to Google, but smaller. This change is happening because the Russian government is trying to push companies and citizens to use local IT services. It’s more useful for the government because they can control everything.

Yesterday I arrived in Baltasi at 8 PM, and by that time it was already a little late. When I reached the border between Arsk and Baltasi, I saw police patrol cars. I thought, “That’s it, they’ll stop me too,” but fortunately they let me pass, so I was able to continue. I thought about it because I don’t have car insurance—I didn’t buy it. Why? Because I plan to stay here only 3 months, and for that time I’d have to pay $30, while a whole year costs $50. It doesn’t seem reasonable to me to pay that much if I’m not using the car long-term. Also, if the police stop me for the first time, I can just pay an $8 fine, and after that the fine is between $30–$50. So for me, it still feels unreasonable, and that’s why I decided to take my chances.

Today my morning started as usual. I woke up at 8 AM and immediately got up to do my morning routine. At that time, I still wasn’t thinking about going to Kazan. However, after a few hours I started to think about a trip to Kazan. When I looked out of my window, the weather was ridiculously awesome—there wasn’t a single cloud in the sky, it was deep blue, and the sun was shining so brightly that it warmed my windowsill. Also it was my last vacation days. All of this helped me decide to go to Kazan.

Today my day started at 8:30 AM. I woke up at that time but only got up at 10 AM. Until 10, I kept lying in bed and reading Reddit. There I found some interesting posts and news. The news was about how the Russian government attacked the Polish border using drones. Some people also discussed how World War II started and compared it with the current situation. I think I agree, because if you don’t fight back, that guy will always beat you.

Hey, today the first half of the day was cloudy and rainy, so I could only go for a walk after 2 PM. I walked until 4 PM. The first part of my walk was in Sabantuy Park. There, I saw people rollerblading on the road near the forest, some were jogging, and others were just walking, enjoying the warm, beautiful autumn day.

Yesterday, the Spanish visa center published appointment dates available until September 30. But I couldn’t make an appointment because their site kept blocking my IP address and was working very badly. I can understand that the site worked poorly, but I have no idea why they blocked my IP. I even tried changing my IP, but it didn’t help. I used 4 different networks: my home network, my first SIM mobile network, my second SIM mobile network, and my mom’s mobile network. And every time, they blocked me.